it's so hard

to feel good with yourself completely

and not comparing your self with others...

so when other people do well, and book things and stuff... you wonder what is so wring with you that you didn't book it.

even if you have booked and gotten the attention from other people...

i don't know.

this is a tough business... it's very hard to deal with emotionally.

and if one day i get over this i know i will be so much stronger

and wiser

so i will try to do my best and not give up.
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